Empty

Warning. Emo post coming up. I am just not me anymore. I don’t know what the hell I am doing. I am just lost in this whole thing. I never want to be there. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Am I too tired? Stressed? Or am I just giving up on life. I don’t know. I shouldn’t be emotional like this. It isn’t good for me or the people around me. It’s not that I choose to be this way. Sometimes people depend on me too much, when you guys are going to see that I am imperfect as well. I don’t know how to do things as well. I am clumsy and might not be the perfect to help you out. I will do my best but I can’t guarantee 100% that everything will go on well.

I have never asked anything more or anything less. All I ever wanted is just your friendship. I don’t want to trouble you and be a burden. So, I am sorry if sometimes I don’t want to talk about my problems to you because I don’t want to be judge. I don’t want you to think that I depend too much on you. I don’t want to be seen as a weak person. Sometimes I just don’t have the courage to tell you how I really feel because I am afraid I might hurt you. I don’t want you to feel that I am neglecting you. I am sorry if you feel that way dear friend. I can never be that perfect friend for you but I am happy you are that perfect friend for me.

I would also like to apologize to all my friends, if I ever did anything wrong. I might have said or did something wrong without realizing or sometimes on purpose. I can never please all of you but I hope I can be a better person. I am still learning and I am not perfect. Sorry if I am not good enough to be your friend. I’ll try my best to be a friend but I fail sometimes so what else can I do. I am just feeling empty now.