hallo can you please stop talking behind my back?
do u find so much pleasure doin it?
if u hate me so much then just come and tell me directly!
u dont have to be such a hypocrite
u talk as if u were a mr/miss know it all
well ur not
so take the fact and live with it!
LOSER!

i just watch the movie "seven pounds"

will smith aka handsome hunk

plays the lead role

slow moving movie but i liked it

it made me cry

and yes the movie is touching

My “Digi Graduation” was ok today. We when to the Digi HQ that was in Shah Alam. My Yellow Army Advisor came to fetch us today but she came late because she had training. What is “Digi Graduation”? We graduate with the amount of numbers we have sold out to the customers. The graduate level depends on how much of numbers u sold. There are four levels that is the graduate level, merit level, distinction level and excellence level.

We when late so all the food almost finish but we manage to get the cendol. It was delicious. Buffet style. Anyway, we did manage to be there on time for the graduation ceremony and I graduated with the Certificate of Merit. So I got a certificate and a cheque of rm100. I arrived back at college at 4pm and I was supposed to meet Zhong Wen and go to church at 4pm.

When I arrived at college I saw her standing outside of the college and was waiting for me already. Then I told her I need to go back to the room. So I came back to the room rushed, changed and when to church today. I had a great time at church today it was such an awesome time of praise and worship. Thanks Anna and Zhong Wen for taking me to your church. After church we when for dinner then we arrived at college at 10pm. It was a really tiring day for me but I am really happy that I made it a point to attend church today.

Besides that, Zhong Wen and I also attended Persatuan Kristian Varsiti (PKV) on Friday it reminds me of Christian Fellowship that I use to go to when I was at Convent. All of a sudden I miss school. I really need to go now.

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I am currently reading CancerVixen.

i will be going for my "digi graduation" today.

will talk bout it on my next post

i was suppose to leave at 10 something and its already 11 and

my transportation havent arrived yet

*sigh*

so i got a lil bored and decided to blog..

and yeah..tats me all ready to go!

i miss home

i want to go back

i want to eat daddy's cooking

i want to disturb my mother

i want my sister to cook for me chicken soup

i want to go out with my sis n bro in law to sunway

*cries*

good nite peeps!

i am exausted.

The latest books that i have read...

For the month of January, so far i have read this two books :

I read this three books last month:

I want to read more books.

I got to go now.

Have to finish up my assignment.

Gonna pass it up tomorrow.

Good night and Golden Dreams.

Hugs =)

ok-ness

im doin ok now

im back people =)

because

This is the day the Lord has made and I will be glad and rejoice in it

why are you doing this?

i am hurt..really hurt..

you act as if i dont exist

is it so hard for you to even smile back at me?

i dont ask much..

just a smile...

it doesnt cost you anything..

why are you treating me this way?

did i do anything wrong?

if i did then do tell..

or is it too late for me to even apologise?

I am just so tired..

Tired of life..

Tired of classes..

And Tired of everything..

Everything seems so meaningless..

i am in the midst of a lecture

and here i am blogging..

well..my lecturer is showing her favourite video clips on youtube..

hahah..it's funny..

and almost half of the class is onlining..

ok then got to go!!

bye peeps!

all i wanted was a hug..

now i feel so much better..

thank u so much..

Down really down

I do have a lot of friends. No doubt about that. But how many of them are really true? And how many of them do really care? I do go out and hang out with my friends. Go classes together or even seat and have dinner together. But to know whether their intentions being with you is true or not that I am not sure.

But at the end of all the “whoha” and busyness I still sit alone in my room and think whether I will have a friend that truly will be there for me when I’m down and even someone to talk to. Sometimes I feel so lost and the only company I have is the silence of my room.

When you seat alone you tend to think a lot. I do that a lot now days. Sometimes I will be so quiet around my friends and they will start asking me whether I am ok or not. I will just give them a smile and say I am doing fine. It’s fake alright. But I just not use sharing how I feel with people maybe I just like carrying it all with me or maybe I want to share with my friends but don’t seem to think it is necessary to share how I feel with that person. Why do I need to share how I feel when I know that they’re just going to judge me and just talk behind my back? It’s not like I’m bothered when the talk about me but it does hurt eventually.

I should just stop being emo.

My second week at university starts tomorrow. My classes are pack tomorrow. It’s gonna be a long and tiring day. I have to work really hard this semester. It is not easy to maintain my pointer and everyone seems to just be reminding me about that. I just have to buck up and don’t lose track I guess. Well, that’s about it then. I got to go peeps!

Things to do

just had my lunch
today i dont have any classes but i have so many things to do and yet i still sitting in front of the lappy and cant seem to be moving my butt to get things done..
well, this is a list of things that i need to do ;

1. wash my clothes
2. finish up my assignments
3. read the books that i am suppose to read for my prose class
4. organise my files for classes
5. finish the storybook i took from alexx

i got to go then..

bye peeps.

hungry lar =(

I don’t have class tomorrow..
Yay!!!
I’m feeling so hungry right now.. darn..
Everyone else is sleeping except me.
Well let me update what happened today.
I had only one class today, it was from 2 till 3.30pm
I came back to college around 4pm then read my storybook till I slept off and got up at 7pm for dinner.
I had meeting at 8 for my mega project for this semester Malam Kesenian India.
We did the deco and dance practice.
Yes I am dancing and it’s awkward.
So now I am tired and hungry. Sad yet lame.
I am out of money totally broke at the moment.

Signing off with a hungry stomach.

Hi peeps I am back at University.
I came back on Sunday.
Yesterday I attended my first class for this 2nd semester.
It was really tiring and I am still not use with the routine yet probably.
I have been having sleepless nights. I really can’t sleep properly throughout the night.
I have no idea why. But I really feel very tired and sleepy.
Besides my tiredness, I really enjoy coming back to college to meet my friends.
I guess, it all begins again, new lecturers, new assignment and oh ya new faces!!!
We got new class mates from China, US, and Turki.
Haven’t mingled around with them yet but will love to get to know about them.
Later I have a class at 5pm.
That’s all for now =)

during my first day..it was a really boring class..seriously!!

what i want

have you ever thought that life is more than getting a degree and studying?
i have =)
i wish i was out there venturing in the world
travelling where i want and doing all the things i like and enjoy
going for bag pack trips, hitch hike perhaps..
well, going into the journey of the unknown..

maybe im just crapping

but well it has always been my dream to get out of malaysia and travel all over

i feel a certain urge to go out there and learn different culture

experience different kind of atmosphere and meet people all over

sometimes i wonder whether is it even possible

but i have always live with this words that is when there is a will there must be a way

i really want to go out there

i want to see the sunset at the shores of miami

i want to feel the strong winds at new zealand which my sister often talk about

i want to touch snow with my bare hands and see whether it sends chills down my spine

i want to dine in the most famous italian restaurant at italy

i want to see the 7 wonders of the world

that is a lot of stuff i would like to do

but it is really something i dream of doin since i was a child

i guess i have to work for it and trust Him

and no i am not a rich kid which get to go for vacation whenever they want

My life year 2008..ok not all of it..A pinch of it...

January

Still enjoying life after STPM. Going out with friends. Having the time of my life.
Seriously. =)

February

Bubu left to New Zealand.

March

3th -10th March was in KL spending time with my sister and bro in law. I really enjoyed my stay there.

12th March is such a memorable day yet terrifying one. It was the day my STPM result is announced at school. Dad followed me to take my results and it was one of my proudest moments ever. I did well and I was really happy. All glory should be given to God. I believe I did my part and He helped me out as well. I still got pretty annoyed with some people who said I did well because I was in arts stream. Well, it doesn’t mean if you’re in arts stream u get to sit and shake your legs before the exam. We work our butts off as well. So helloo, I work my butt off to get the results I achieved. So hell yeah! Im proud of it!!

14th March-Dilemma mode. Applying for uni can be so difficult. Different courses and different point of views from different people. Basically, I really wanted to do law but with my pointers which was not 4 flat. I hesitated. I just didn’t have the confidence to apply. So, I applied for TESL instead. My 1st choice TESL in UM and thank God I got it.

Besides applying for local university I also did applied for Star Education Scholarship.

April

This was the worst month of my life. Maybe it was just a turning point of my life. Don’t want to talk about it or elaborate on it.

18th April – I went for an interview at SEGI college, KL today for some scholarship that was offered by 8tv.

19th April – Since I applied for TESL I had to go for a MEDSI test. I took my test at Science School back in BM. I travelled all the way back from KL for this exam. I have to complete 300 questions in an hour. Thank God it was objective. But the questions were pretty lame.
I left everything up to God. I was totally drained because of some issues.

And YES.. I surrender…

24th April – Started working with my Uncle.
Bubu’s wedding preparation started. Wow, so many things to do and plan. Since the bride is in NZ.

May

The waiting period was tough. Well, after my MEDSI test they called and informed me that I am suppose to attend an interview at USM. So I went and the interview went on well. I know I’ll get a place in University but I’m just not sure where.

I manage to get the scholarship that I applied for at both Sunway College and Lim Kok Wing after passing the interview. This scholarship is under The Star Education Fund. It was a full scholarship. I was really excited but unfortunately dad and mum wanted me to go to local university. I was quite angry, frustrated and disappointed at first. But I got over it. So here I am. I guess I don’t regret it at all now I know there is a purpose why I am place there by God.
When for Christian Fellowship Camp at Cameron Highlands. I really thank God for this camp it was awesome and it did help me to move on.

June

Bubu came back from NZ her engagement will be on the 19th. University results came out. I did make the cut and yes I made it to University of Malaya. Well I was happy at least I made it to the University of my choice.

20th June – We the family decided to throw a dinner party for everyone on the night before the wedding. The food was delicious. I was basically the party planner. The food was catered from my friend’s mother. The bride and groom appeared for a while; they had dinner and left because they need to go for facial or something like that. So we all enjoyed with the cousins and everyone had a great time that night.

21st June – Bu’s wedding. Everything was in a rush. She had to do her makeup, hair, bla bla… It was really a tiring day. I was the bride’s maid. When they say bride’s MAID, trust me..u are really the MAID. It was a nice experience though. They got married and I am happy that everything turned out well. She got married with the man she loves and I trust God that he will take care for her.

A week or two after that, she left back to NZ with her husband.
Enrolled in university on the 29th of June. When my parents left me there I cried. Yes I did.

July

Orientation week was tiring and my muscles were aching from all the running, half stands and all the other stuff that we were asked to do.

Missed home badly.

18th July - I went for my first camp organized by the Digi which is actually under the university obviously.

Participated in so many activities in campus and college.

August

Participated in a Public Speaking competition but I didn’t win.
Got to know a lot of people at uni.

September

Assignments and more assignments.

October

21st October - I turned 20. My birthday was celebrated by friends at university. I had two birthday cakes this year.

November

Exams dilemma. I was really stressed and I really did study.
Thanks to Zhong Wen, Kai Chur, Shin Yen, Fei Mian for all the tips and wake up calls. I really appreciate it..u guys. I am 20 but I still need people to wake me up.

December

Uncle’s birthday party. Had an awesome time at Rawang, Selangor.
Christmas time again. It was a joyous and wonderful celebration this year. Everyone was there except for Bubu and Sumit.

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Conclusion, I am glad things turn out the way He wanted. He always has His own reasons. A pastor once told me “We might not see things the way He sees it but what He sees is always best for us.” I really want to thank God for His favors in my life. Lord Jesus you have always been there for me even though I doubt your presence in my life sometimes. Year 2008 was full of new beginnings for me and my family, I thank you for fulfilling my needs and blessing my family. I am sure You have great things in store for me and my family in this new year of 2009. Thank U Jesus for everything in my life. Teach me how to appreciate what I have and know that I am blessed. In your name I pray, Amen.