I'm all out of love.

...but His love never fails :D

4.59pm

If you're not bothered then why must I be?

Living my life as it is.

I am happy there is 3 weeks left for this semester to be over.

:D So thrilled =.=!

Till then, God Bless.

Thank you.

Thank you for hurting me again.
For doing things that make me go crazy.
For making me think too much on lonely nights like this.
For allowing me to feel the pain.
For saying that ur sorry, but actually ur not.
For constantly making me look like the fool.
For doing things u think that doesn't matter but it certainly matters to me.
Thank you for making me feel that I am worth nothing.
When I am worth more than you think.

Yes, I admit.
I get emo easily
I get sad occasionally
Even the slightest action of urs affects me.

But yeah, u guys don't see it, or well u don't see it.Duh!

Darn. I am strong yet fragile.
Like a big beautiful vase, but once u drop it.
It'll be broken into pieces.
Putting the pieces back together aint gonna be easy.
So, don't hurt me. or perharps, I should say..
I need to learn to be stronger.
But how strong can one person get or be?

Strong enough to let this matter go?
Strong enough to just ignore this?
Strong enough to forgive?

Yeah, I will in the matter of time.

One fine day..
You will realize or
maybe
I will understand.

5.15am

I am thinking too much..
I can't sleep..
It's already 5.01am and I have class later at 9.30am.
I have no idea what's wrong.
Oh I was doing my assignment earlier, so I didn't really waste time.
Hopefully everything goes on fine.

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The days are passing by
I want to catch a glimpse of you passing by
Even just for a few seconds
It would have been great baby
But it is something, my friends would not reckon
Something I shouldn't do,
But I want too
Oh geez, I should stop ranting
Because no matter what you will always have a place here deep down...
At the moment it is still there,
But..I hope..
I hope it'll go away coz in my heart u can't stay..
U know why?
Because someday my knight in shining armor will come
When that day comes, I want it to be entirely for him
Till then, u can stay..

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My first love, will always be my first love.. :) Thank You for looking past my imperfections and for loving me abundantly. Truly, there is none like You, Jesus..

me and the world

Yesterday, I told my daddy..
"Someday I will travel all around the world"

The time will come, till then I got to start workin on my assignment.

Satisfied.

Another two more assignments to go, then I am done.

Wait, I know I have my Research Proposal and Academic Writing to think bout as well but that can wait..for now.

At this moment, I am satisfied.

Thank You, God..
For Your guidance, love and strength.

I am hungry =( Feel like eating cupcake!

3 days 2 nights at Paradise

Langkawi Trip was by far the most awesome trip I went for. Thanks for my sis and Prakash for actually asking me to join. I was reluctant to go at first because of unending assignments but if Not NOW then WENT?

We stayed at this really awesome place called MaliBest, its totally worth our money Rm120 per night and the rooms and most importantly the toilets were clean. The beach was right outside our room. The sound of waves and children playing can be heard right from our room. It was just so awesome. Well, the room wasn’t the thing that got me soo excited. It was the activities we did there.

I went for parasailing and not forgetting banana boat ride :)It was hysterically fun.
We went for Island Hopping- We visited three different island,I can only remember Pulau Dayang Bunting the other two, I can’t recall in my memory. We went to this place where they fed eagles and it was just awesome to see all this birds flying freely. We also went to this area where we can fed and see fishes, turtles, and weird kind of aquatic animals.

Oh ya, there is also this pub/bar by the beach which was like so cool. The place was filled with Mat Salleh’s..hahaha.. Cuci Mata la, wat else..

I love the beach, the company and most of all God’s amazing work of art.














The pics came out the other way round =.=! Not gonna re-edit, I have Assignments! Got to go, n More pics are on Fb la..

Adios then Peeps!

If only

If only they know..
If only you know..
I am hurting in the inside.

Caring too much

What does it actually mean if you care about someone?
For me it is simply an act of love and just because I care.
Sorry if it means that I am disturbing you or being too nosy about your life.
I am just doing it because I am concern.
I am just worried.
Maybe it’s true what they said.
I shouldn’t care.
But how can I not care?
When u was here for me when I needed someone?
This is not even my fault. And I am feeling so bad and down.
Is caring wrong? Or caring is being portrayed as disturbing?
Dilemma.
I don’t know what to think, feel or do anymore.
Just worried and hope things will get better.

I am sorry if I was too caring till you felt I was disturbing.
I will not be a bother anymore.
Sorry.

24 hours

I wish I had more time
To spend with you
To just have a conversation with you
To just have breakfast? Lunch, or dinner, perhaps
I wish you had the time
To reply my messages
To call me and see how I’m doing
To say you wanna meet up
I wish we both had something we can’t have more than it’s suppose to be
24 hours is all we got

Presentation

So, here I am again at the library.
No longer doing my research proposal but now busy preparing for my presentation tomorrow.

I handed in or should I say, gave my lecturer to check on my proposal today and he said it was alright. He even complemented some parts of my proposal. Thank God, everything went on well, at least the late nights I had, been worth it.

Totally looking forward for tomorrow, because I want to sleep after my presentation is over.

Yes, I am tired like that.

I got to go then.
Oh ya, I am addicted to the song Love the way You Lie. (Eminem ft Rihanna)-- >> Its Just Awesome.

Leadership Presentation, here I come. Weeeeee...

I Promise

Apapun terjadi, Kujanjikan aku ada :)

Colors

I like bright colourful stuff. They make me smile :) Something I need these days.

Exam Mode

Poetry Exam. Blah!

I’m so disappointed with myself. Need I say more?

I can never be good enough. My hope of trying to get a better pointer this semester seems to be so vague. I tried so hard I did. Hopefully, I’ll do better for my next paper.

Critical Thinking- 11 November

Well it was so so.. Easy, Average, and Difficult. Confusing at times.

Next paper, Teaching Poetry. But I'm totally worried about my Psychology paper.

3 More papers and I'll taste pure pleasure and freedom.

Deep Inside..

I look back and I see no one was there for me or with me.

I wonder was I walking alone all this while. Or did they just leave?

This lonely soul wanders.

In the midst of loneliness.

I know I am all alone.

Life

Lots of downs these days then ups.

I am slacking, I know I am.

I am at the edge, might just fall off or let go anytime.

I shouldn't be so negative but things that are happening to me doesn't seem to be helping me at all.

I did great/good for my presentation earlier, according to my friends.

Hopefully I will find the light at the end of the tunnel.

Missing the live I used to live as a form 6 student.

If only i could turn back time.

Someone told me that I'm going to be 21 already so I got to be rational and face situations wisely.

Missing Dad N Mum.

ThInKInG

Do u actually care?

i HOPE so

But I DONT think you DO.

Bad Day GOne GooD

I had one of the worst days of my life today.
Terrible headache,
I think I'm not getting enough sleep. But i just dont have enough time, if i sleep early at night.
Anyway, THANK God i only had two classes today.
After class, wanted to go back to college....but....i went for prayer meeting first.
Prayer meeting with Leslie, Vily, and Zhong Weng.
I was kind of suffering so didnt layan them that much, felt kind of bad though.
Sorry guys, my sincere apology.
Well, after prayer meeting i walked back to college all on my own, coz they wanted to grab lunch at the faculty itself.
As i was walking back, passing Language and Linguistics Faculty, a car passed by me, and mystery man was in there. Wah, i was so excited. Gosh, and he waved at me first, then obviously i waved back. That's about it. You guys might think Im crazy, getting excited just because of a wave, but hey! i dont care =) coz me like him! I have tonnes of assignment to do. Got to go!

missing mummy and daddy

ChAmPions..Congrats

I went for my juniors dance competition today, was held and organized by 4th residential college.

They did a great job and won 2nd place..

Congratulations!

7th college rocks.

the dancers, all 1st year students

TenSiOn + RunSing

omg! one problem to another, why must i be facing this today, of all days in my life! super lame! i have so many assignments yet im caught up in the middle of this. just feeling so frustrated, why did i do to this deserve all this, for the past whole year i have been giving my all for this club then now, u all act like i dont even exist? u know what i dont give a damn already. totally annoyed and i guess i will move on from today onwards. what u want to do, u guys decide, i will concentrate on other college stuff that i am involve in.

I dont care anymore i just dont!

Dont come finding me when u all need me.

Because at that time, I aint helping!

U guys are playing with my emotions.

Stop talking behind my back as well, because i know u are. Go find some other topics or just go and studylah if u have all the time in the world. Like the peribahasa jangan jaga tepi kain orang...

I may look vurnerable but i am strong, i went to many hardships in life to stop what i am doing now.

I aint quitting if u think i am.

WELL, although i am EMO~ing right now, i still feel so disappointed.

Oh GOSH! cant wait for year end sem break! Well, at least the raya holidays...

MIssIN yOu

i miss you
i really do
im hoping u would forgive me
its not like it was entirely my fault
u started this whole drama
u made me become this way
u are the one who hurt me first
but i dont care anymore
i hope we would forget the past and move on
all because i have move on and forgiven u
its was difficult at first but its a new day everyday
i hope things would be different
i miss the old me, and i miss the old you
but time changes all things? do they? or people changes through time?
im not sure, but you are no longer the old you, and i am no longer the old me
maybe i have come to a point of realization,
whereby, i have to realise what is important for my life..
whatever it is, u are still important for me..
and yeah i do care bout you..
although i dont show it that much
but trust me, deep down
it hurts me to see u sad and not having the joy u use to have
dear friend, i dedicate this to you..
wanting u to know that i miss you
and enough is enough.
forgive me would you?