I'm all out of love.

...but His love never fails :D

4.59pm

If you're not bothered then why must I be?

Living my life as it is.

I am happy there is 3 weeks left for this semester to be over.

:D So thrilled =.=!

Till then, God Bless.

Thank you.

Thank you for hurting me again.
For doing things that make me go crazy.
For making me think too much on lonely nights like this.
For allowing me to feel the pain.
For saying that ur sorry, but actually ur not.
For constantly making me look like the fool.
For doing things u think that doesn't matter but it certainly matters to me.
Thank you for making me feel that I am worth nothing.
When I am worth more than you think.

Yes, I admit.
I get emo easily
I get sad occasionally
Even the slightest action of urs affects me.

But yeah, u guys don't see it, or well u don't see it.Duh!

Darn. I am strong yet fragile.
Like a big beautiful vase, but once u drop it.
It'll be broken into pieces.
Putting the pieces back together aint gonna be easy.
So, don't hurt me. or perharps, I should say..
I need to learn to be stronger.
But how strong can one person get or be?

Strong enough to let this matter go?
Strong enough to just ignore this?
Strong enough to forgive?

Yeah, I will in the matter of time.

One fine day..
You will realize or
maybe
I will understand.

5.15am

I am thinking too much..
I can't sleep..
It's already 5.01am and I have class later at 9.30am.
I have no idea what's wrong.
Oh I was doing my assignment earlier, so I didn't really waste time.
Hopefully everything goes on fine.

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The days are passing by
I want to catch a glimpse of you passing by
Even just for a few seconds
It would have been great baby
But it is something, my friends would not reckon
Something I shouldn't do,
But I want too
Oh geez, I should stop ranting
Because no matter what you will always have a place here deep down...
At the moment it is still there,
But..I hope..
I hope it'll go away coz in my heart u can't stay..
U know why?
Because someday my knight in shining armor will come
When that day comes, I want it to be entirely for him
Till then, u can stay..

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My first love, will always be my first love.. :) Thank You for looking past my imperfections and for loving me abundantly. Truly, there is none like You, Jesus..

me and the world

Yesterday, I told my daddy..
"Someday I will travel all around the world"

The time will come, till then I got to start workin on my assignment.

Satisfied.

Another two more assignments to go, then I am done.

Wait, I know I have my Research Proposal and Academic Writing to think bout as well but that can wait..for now.

At this moment, I am satisfied.

Thank You, God..
For Your guidance, love and strength.

I am hungry =( Feel like eating cupcake!

3 days 2 nights at Paradise

Langkawi Trip was by far the most awesome trip I went for. Thanks for my sis and Prakash for actually asking me to join. I was reluctant to go at first because of unending assignments but if Not NOW then WENT?

We stayed at this really awesome place called MaliBest, its totally worth our money Rm120 per night and the rooms and most importantly the toilets were clean. The beach was right outside our room. The sound of waves and children playing can be heard right from our room. It was just so awesome. Well, the room wasn’t the thing that got me soo excited. It was the activities we did there.

I went for parasailing and not forgetting banana boat ride :)It was hysterically fun.
We went for Island Hopping- We visited three different island,I can only remember Pulau Dayang Bunting the other two, I can’t recall in my memory. We went to this place where they fed eagles and it was just awesome to see all this birds flying freely. We also went to this area where we can fed and see fishes, turtles, and weird kind of aquatic animals.

Oh ya, there is also this pub/bar by the beach which was like so cool. The place was filled with Mat Salleh’s..hahaha.. Cuci Mata la, wat else..

I love the beach, the company and most of all God’s amazing work of art.














The pics came out the other way round =.=! Not gonna re-edit, I have Assignments! Got to go, n More pics are on Fb la..

Adios then Peeps!

Mode: Happy

I have been happy this few days. I have no idea why. Happy and thankful for what I have. I really thank God for giving me an AWESOME life here. I have what I want and I certainly should be thankful. Yes, there is definitely a wish list of the things I want but I can’t get. However, what I need is all sufficient enough. My friends think I am wacko because I get excited all of a sudden in class or maybe when I am walking back to college with them. I can’t do anything if all of a sudden I have an adrenaline rush. Life is just awesome and it true what i read in Juer’s yahoo messanger update “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”. Yeah, so I am not dead but I am just stronger from what I used to be. I want to make a difference and I am trying to work my way through it. Eh, at least I am trying.

On a lighter note, I am leaving college tomorrow. I will tell you, all about it when I come back. It will be my sweet escape and I think I am gonna love it.

Oh ya, I have been sleeping pretty late these few days. I am trying to finish up my assignments and things that I have been postponing. I need to get back on track, like seriously. I must not lose focus and got to do my best la. I don’t want to regret later on.

That’s all I guess, till I come back :) toddles!

xoxo

Terrified by Katharine McPhee

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting start
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
in my only

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
In my only life

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Love this song :)

i need a hug.

If only

If only they know..
If only you know..
I am hurting in the inside.

In moments like this

The moments, the drama, the joy. I miss them, I miss what we use to have. Things are no longer the same now. People change for some reason. Whatever it is, the memories we had will always be cherished.





As we go forth, we'll remember, all the times, we had together..

Caring too much

What does it actually mean if you care about someone?
For me it is simply an act of love and just because I care.
Sorry if it means that I am disturbing you or being too nosy about your life.
I am just doing it because I am concern.
I am just worried.
Maybe it’s true what they said.
I shouldn’t care.
But how can I not care?
When u was here for me when I needed someone?
This is not even my fault. And I am feeling so bad and down.
Is caring wrong? Or caring is being portrayed as disturbing?
Dilemma.
I don’t know what to think, feel or do anymore.
Just worried and hope things will get better.

I am sorry if I was too caring till you felt I was disturbing.
I will not be a bother anymore.
Sorry.

24 hours

I wish I had more time
To spend with you
To just have a conversation with you
To just have breakfast? Lunch, or dinner, perhaps
I wish you had the time
To reply my messages
To call me and see how I’m doing
To say you wanna meet up
I wish we both had something we can’t have more than it’s suppose to be
24 hours is all we got

Home is where My Heart Is

Presentation

So, here I am again at the library.
No longer doing my research proposal but now busy preparing for my presentation tomorrow.

I handed in or should I say, gave my lecturer to check on my proposal today and he said it was alright. He even complemented some parts of my proposal. Thank God, everything went on well, at least the late nights I had, been worth it.

Totally looking forward for tomorrow, because I want to sleep after my presentation is over.

Yes, I am tired like that.

I got to go then.
Oh ya, I am addicted to the song Love the way You Lie. (Eminem ft Rihanna)-- >> Its Just Awesome.

Leadership Presentation, here I come. Weeeeee...

I Promise

Apapun terjadi, Kujanjikan aku ada :)

Bonkers

Research Proposal is making me go BONKERS.

Aishiteru :)

Kimita tuokukitemo, Kiminoi shuaguaratala, Shiniteruyo shiniteruyo..aishiteru..

Colors

I like bright colourful stuff. They make me smile :) Something I need these days.