Mode: Happy

I have been happy this few days. I have no idea why. Happy and thankful for what I have. I really thank God for giving me an AWESOME life here. I have what I want and I certainly should be thankful. Yes, there is definitely a wish list of the things I want but I can’t get. However, what I need is all sufficient enough. My friends think I am wacko because I get excited all of a sudden in class or maybe when I am walking back to college with them. I can’t do anything if all of a sudden I have an adrenaline rush. Life is just awesome and it true what i read in Juer’s yahoo messanger update “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”. Yeah, so I am not dead but I am just stronger from what I used to be. I want to make a difference and I am trying to work my way through it. Eh, at least I am trying.

On a lighter note, I am leaving college tomorrow. I will tell you, all about it when I come back. It will be my sweet escape and I think I am gonna love it.

Oh ya, I have been sleeping pretty late these few days. I am trying to finish up my assignments and things that I have been postponing. I need to get back on track, like seriously. I must not lose focus and got to do my best la. I don’t want to regret later on.

That’s all I guess, till I come back :) toddles!

xoxo

Terrified by Katharine McPhee

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting start
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
in my only

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
In my only life

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Love this song :)

i need a hug.

If only

If only they know..
If only you know..
I am hurting in the inside.

In moments like this

The moments, the drama, the joy. I miss them, I miss what we use to have. Things are no longer the same now. People change for some reason. Whatever it is, the memories we had will always be cherished.





As we go forth, we'll remember, all the times, we had together..

Caring too much

What does it actually mean if you care about someone?
For me it is simply an act of love and just because I care.
Sorry if it means that I am disturbing you or being too nosy about your life.
I am just doing it because I am concern.
I am just worried.
Maybe it’s true what they said.
I shouldn’t care.
But how can I not care?
When u was here for me when I needed someone?
This is not even my fault. And I am feeling so bad and down.
Is caring wrong? Or caring is being portrayed as disturbing?
Dilemma.
I don’t know what to think, feel or do anymore.
Just worried and hope things will get better.

I am sorry if I was too caring till you felt I was disturbing.
I will not be a bother anymore.
Sorry.

24 hours

I wish I had more time
To spend with you
To just have a conversation with you
To just have breakfast? Lunch, or dinner, perhaps
I wish you had the time
To reply my messages
To call me and see how I’m doing
To say you wanna meet up
I wish we both had something we can’t have more than it’s suppose to be
24 hours is all we got